Saturday, June 25, 2005

my cat has found its new bed for sleeping-MY SCHOOL SHOES. yes. its been sitting on it ever since the june hols where my skool shoes lay unused on the floor. and you can never imagine how squashed my poor shoes are unless u've seen my cat before. it's FAT. hoho so the other day when i went to skool my shoes were like a hotpot n my feet were all compressed. yea n my shoes were flat like a SAMPAN.

o and uh abt the previous entry. NO i was not suffering from depression. i just got reali emotional. yea my emotions were taking control of my mind. anw if i hv depression dont worry la. health promotion board's depression ad is helpful enuf =)

anw, i've finally gotten back my com! it was taken away for re-installing on wed. yea it totally rox now. no more pop-ups. and MY WINDOWS MEDIA PLAYER CAN WORK! XD. yea its been spoilt since like last yr. o but one thing. that guy went to change my username picture into a PINK FLOWER. yucks.

sigh....nth much happened this week. trng yst...it was more lively. wif the snrs jumping up n down after striking or sparing. o and apparently they have do to a penguin walk? HOHO. i must remember to bring my camera =D

anw, we played games. uh first game was crap dont tok abt it. second game ok la. anw i never knew my thumbhole was so tight.

me: aunty cat my fingers are coming out before my thumb
cat: coz ure turning ur ball! dont turn!
me: no my thumb keeps getting stuck!
cat: bring ur ball here
me: *takes ball. sticks in thumb*
cat: *tries to take out my thumb* (finally after a few tries...) *POOK!*
me: AH! PAIN PAIN PAIN!
cat: ALAMAK! SO TIGHT!

i wonder how ive been able to bowl wif sucha tight hole.

anw, so tess stayed over the other day. watched lovers in paris! woots! nice nice nice! i continued watching it for the past 2 nites. now at disc 2. there are 8 discs. i wonder how my mom can finish watching one serial in 2 days. pro man.

skools starting. real soon. reali reali soon. ok but i dont feel THAT sad. coz ive finished most of my work and pts la. math pt due in week 2. and chinese pt's due in like AUGUST. hoho. but im almost done wif chinese liao.

Q: y did everyone keep quiet when jay chou started singing?
A: coz he sang AN JING O_O

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Sunday, June 19, 2005

a bag of mixed feelings. that's probably how u could describe me currently. started off feeling so pissed wif my mom. tess had planned to stay over at my house tmr. so we were trying to think of different things that we could do.

first one was build a tent in my house garden n sleep there. mom said no. its dangerous. so we planned to watch vcd in my living room late into the nite. so had to transport the vcd player down from my parent's room. dad said no. too troublesome. so decided to go to tessa's house instead coz she had a vcd player. mom said no way. ran out of ideas, so our final plan that is acceptable to my mom is for tess to come over and knit thruout the nite.

yea u mite luff at me and think im a spastic. a retard. or "ISN'T KNITTING A GRANNY THING?!"

well...that's how almost everyone responded when i told them over msn. n the alrdy-pissed-wif-my-mom me got even more pissed wif my mom. all these questions came bombarding my mind. y cant i do all those? wads wrong?? n den more questions regarding previous situations flooded in.

y THE HELL cant i go n stayover in chalets?!!!

WHY ON EARTH CANT I GO TO SENTOSA WIF MY CLASSMATES?!!

y cant i pierce my ears when my frens pierced theirs when they were five??!!

why cant i cycle on my own around the neighbourhood??!! tessa does that!!

why cant i go out wif my frens in the evening and be home by 9?? my frens go home at 11!!

why on earth must you go and check the reviews of every single movie i watch and make sure its SAFE?! its so SLOW and TROUBLESOME!

WHY CAN'T I WATCH MR N MRS SMITH???!!! ALL MY FRENS ARE WATCHING IT!!!

and the list just went on and on..."why cant i...when everyone else can." by then i was reali reali veri pissed wif my mom. i felt that it was so unfair. plain UNFAIR. everyone kept comforting me, saying "she's doing it for your own good" I KNOW. I KNOW THAT PERFECTLY. BUT WHY ISIT ONLY ME??!!

then i went to take a bath. in the shower, my tears just started streaming out...camouflaging wif the water...i recalled all the horrible incidences that had happened...

ppl asking me if i wanted to watch mr n mrs smith wif them...i saying my mom dint allow me to. n they replying "why not? my fren's mom went to watch wif her wad! wad's wrong wif that show?" n giving me that shocked and confused look. probably thinking "u're sucha guai kia." or "WAD?! this is totally ridiculous man. its just a movie!"

me sitting wif a whole bunch of frens, den someone suddenly mentioning "mr n mrs smith" and the whole bunch of them going "OH MAN! it's sucha nice show! i love it man!" "yea! so nice rite! the part where they were fighting then suddenly kissing" "YEA! HAHAHA!" "aye i hvent watched yet! u go watch wif me k?? I MUST WATCH!!" n me just sitting there, like a total fool, hoping nobody would notice me being quiet, in fear of them finding out that i wasnt allowed to watch it.

and then i remembered how i was such a music and celebrity idiot. how ppl would start asking me "do u like broken wings?" "aye kelly clarkson's breakaway is super nice!" "I LOVE LONELY NO MORE!" n i'd just say "sorry im no music junkie. i noe no nuts abt music n celebrities" n they'd stare at me, mouths wide-opened, not knowing how to react.

the more i thought of all these, the more i cried. i reali dint noe y my parents are so strict, as compared to others, i reali dint noe y i was sucha music idiot, when almost every single person arnd me knew much more than i knew. i reali dint noe y i was so different from everyone. everytime ppl tok to me about music, i feel reali hopeless and embarrassed. everytime ppl ask me y i cant watch this and that, i feel like a mummy's girl or a guai kia.

then i remembered. i always told my mom how i was a music idiot, how i wasnt cool and stuff. n my mom would always say "it's ok darling. y must u worry about such things. dont follow the world. the world is bad. follow God. be different from the world. live your life like a Christian should."

she'd said this to me quite a number of times. but it just dint make any great impact on me, or dint reali set me thinking. but after thinking n questioning myself as to why i couldnt be like everyone else, i just...remembered wad she said. it was only then that i reali thought abt wad she meant in saying that.

then i felt that...maybe it wasnt so bad to be different from others. n i felt that it wasnt onli that bad, but could also be a good thing, or even a blessing. to be ignorant about all those musics n celebrities, would also mean being less exposed to the bad things of the world. to have such strict parents that dont seem to allow things that arent good influences, would also mean enabling me to grow up and learn to decipher good from bad, and abstain from what is bad.

so i prayed to God. i asked Him to forgive me for being pissed wif my mom. and i thanked Him for making me different from others. most importantly, i thanked him for giving me good parents who protected me from things that could cause harm. good parents who groomed me into the teenager i am today.

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Thursday, June 16, 2005

wheee. love my new blog song? =D haha. bleagh the past few days have been reali tiring. rushing here and there for trng, for piano, for tuition, for rs, blablabla.

rs is the worst. its so yucky n not nice. coz we're doing on blogs n u noe blogs are like reali new, probably onli came out a few years ago. so not much secondary info. so halsall asked us to collect primary info and evidence. aside from surveys n interviews, we gotta go to the library n look thru microfilm of the PAST FEW YEARS.

so today sijia n i went to the library to start on the microfilm thingy. we were supposed to meet at bedok mrt at 10, but i was too sleepy i woke up at 945. HAHA. so at 10 i was still at eunos mrt n i knew i was gona be veri late. den suddenly sijia came up the escalator. HAHAHA! so both of us were late. yay.

anw, so we went to bedok library and TADA! they dint hv the microfilm thing. hahahah it was den that i realised i got the WRONG LIBRARY. coz i remember lisa bringing me to the microfilm thing last yr. but it was TAMPINES LIBRARY. OOPS. hahaha. so we wasted 40 mins for nth. bleagh.

yea so went to tampines and found the microfilm. so we were like

me: ok lets search for the previous years' ones. start from...2002?

sijia: hmm...erm...aiya 2000 la. maybe 2000 alrdy have.

me: hmm...yea hor..ok lor 2000.

me *opens the 2000 drawer* *sees almost a 100 films* *faints*

yea so in the end we were like...aiya just do 2004 la! hahaha. n guess wad. we spent half an hour looking thru one film each, found nothing, n it was time for us to go to skool n meet jess. yes. but anw, i counted. there were altogether 75 more films in 2004 for us to go thru. so if we spent 3 hours in the library everyday, taking half an hour per film, we would be able to finish everything within 7 days. yes. and by then my eyes would be all square.

haha k anw. some of the nicer pics taken in china. the rest are in shutterfly.


us at the er funny funny garden where yang gui fei bathed.


spot the yellow penguin! aiya veri windy la couldn't help it.


shi hui! where are you?


mel loon! im here!


eh the building looks sengek.


yo wassup man!


haha we were TRYING to take a pic of ourselves


whee! 8 of us squeezing on dez's bunk


lisa n i wif the same shirt =D


ying jing n i sticking our heads out of our bunks on the train


HAHA this is super loser! lisa was trying to take a pic of the 3 of us but her aiming skills SUX.


okay this one's SLIGHTLY better.


FINALLY.


wheee! our dinner table


ee and i! yea it was super windy


4 chiobus and a beautiful mountain


ivy shi hui audrey n i in our bunks.


nice spelling n punctuation.


dez n i on the sampan


we can be heroes too


u act dao we oso act dao.


i love their english


okay we'llt TRY not to fall down. (if it can be helped)


haha. lisa's bean!


choo choo train! aye im supposed to be sitting on lisa. not the other way round.


okai! that's all folks!

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Monday, June 13, 2005

ok guys im back. after much requests and demands for additional narratives of events that happened in cheena land.

first up. ee...here's wad i promised u....

VIVIEN TEO EE NAH HAS A CRUSH ON ALEX AKA QU YUAN!!!

hahaha ee! i bet ure squealing in front of ur com now! wahoo. anw alex is this super cute sec 4 guy whom ee thinks is veri shuai. n the name qu yuan was given to him coz obviously for drama he was given the qu yuan role. and i was acting as his student! *ee hyperventilates n gets jealous* hahahaha. yea n he's reali veri cute n guai la. as in when the teacher asks him to add abit more feelings he will reali do it. n he ends up looking reali funny! haha.

yea n one more thing. i hv come to a conclusion that guys are...erm...in a more positive tone...AMUSING. hoho on the first nite when we had our first meal together wif our eating group. out of the 6 guys there, 3 guys unintentionally put their rice into their TEA CUP instead of the rice bowl. i wonder how they managed to do that. the 4 of us girls were like giggling to death la! esp solomon. he was like digging his chopsticks into the rice n probably wondering "how come this bowl so deep one ah..." hahaha!

hmm...yea and of course there were all those mix n match stuff...uh...u get wad i mean? boy like this girl. girl like another boy and yada yada yada. woa shi hui pro leh! she got 3 suitors can! eh but that sito guy is reali disgusting la! the way she...describes shi hui...yux.

anw. i got ONE suitor. this quite shuai guy in my eating group. haha i only found out on like the 4th or 5th day. n if u observe his actions at the table...its reali hilarious. hahaha. yea i think oni those 4 gurls at the table, audrey me sijia n lisa noe. and some 205-ers. yea n sijia was so jealous when he pulled open the chair for me so many times and dint pull the chair for her! HAHA! SORRY SIJIA. TRY SOMEONE ELSE! =P eh but one thing. HE'S A SEC ONE! but he doenst look like a sec one at all la! he's soooo tall. i think taller than sijia. i tot he was a sec 4...until i asked him. sheesh.

ok. aside from all the fun n laughter. on a more serious tone, wad hv i learnt. o well the most important one is of course to be thankful to God for giving me a home to stay and food to eat. yea...we walked past the ship crews' cabins a couple of times. n i took a peek in once. the conditions were reali undesirable. the room was like...2x2m? n the bed wasnt even a bed. it was just hard stone with a straw mat on it. n the smell in there is so...musty and still and...o well...a world of difference comparing it to our rooms back home la.

n seeing those roadside vendors hu keep on coming up to you asking you to buy stuff. the way they were dressed...their desperation...they'd probably hadnt had a decent meal for at least 2 days. n u reali wanna help them but there are so many of them. and even if you were to help them by buying their stuff...do u think this would end their suffering? well i dont think so. so you just walk away...hving this reali lousy feeling inside you....full of pity for them. and u can do nothing but just thank God for blessing you with so many things.

yeap. that's reali how i felt seeing those peeps out there. not a nice feeling...really. frankly, at first i found them reali irritating. even pissed wif them when they cheated ppl of their money by running away without giving them a change. or returning them counterfeit money. but do they really have a choice? i guess not.

tmr's gona be a reali busy day man. morning meet halsall for rs. den after that do chinese pt. evening rush back for piano. wednesday morning got chinese tuition. den rush to trng. den rush to jolene's house for math pt. bleagh. but im glad ive gotten down to reading those books that were given to me after my baptism. halfway thru "basic christianity" now. its a classic. apparently my mom's frens gave the same book to her to read before she became a christian. cool eh.

speaking of which on july 2nd they're hving this year gathering for my mom's graduation batch in our skool hall. o n they're gona invite their principal evelyn norris. hahaha so cool man! imagine u stepping into a hall named after you. eh but i wonder y they dint invite mrs deborah tan's batch. she was 2 years my mom's snr. o wells. n apparently my grandma's cardiac doctor was oso from rgs n same year as my mom. coz my mom was looking thru the list of all the invited peeps n saw her name. n i suppose aunty ghim hoon's going too. man so many connections. HOPEFULLY NONE OF THOSE PPL THERE ARE MY TEACHERS. else i DIE.

ok i better go prepare for our meeting wif halsall tmr. byeee

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Tuesday, June 07, 2005

YO! IM BACK! yay! its so good to be home! but i kinda miss china too la. hmm...this whole entry will be dedicated entirely to my china trip. spent 5 days 4 nites on the cruise. the rest were on land. mhmm. ok im not gona like go in chronological order n blog abt every single day. i shall just blog about the highlights =)

hmm...first highlight was on the second morning. we had this basket of toiletries by the sink. den audrey n i were abt to check out of our room when she spotted this card by the sink which stated all the items in the basket and the PRICES. like wad on earth la! i tot it was free can! so i used the soap and shampoo n bath soap and hand towel and almost EVERYTHING la! n the stoopid card was so humongously small! n we dint wanna pay for such an unjust thing. so i just dried the hand towel n folded it nicely as if it were new. den i tried adding water in the shampoo n soap bottle to make it diluted. but they just couldnt mix. so in the end audrey poured her GREEN shampoo in. hahaha! then the hand soap was the most troublesome one. i had to take out the torn n tattered stinky wrapper from the dustbin n wrap it back. HAH. arent we pro =D

HOHO den came the mega-action day. it was june 1. which was also china's children's day. so we were all treated like kids! wahaha back to our childhood days. anw. on this supposedly veri joyous occasion, we experienced 11 unfortunate events. in chronological order:

1) this cute sec 1 guy called jaryll in my eating group gena serious diahrrhea. so the cruise had to stop by this city for like 2 hours to send him to the hospital n back. as a result we got delayed so after that the cruise had to like SPEED.

2) this super super dao mei sec 1 guy walked rite into a humongous glass window thinking it was a door n the whole thing shattered. o yea n he oso got injured la duh.

3) audrey n i felt hungry at nite n wanted to hv cup noodles but we realised the supposedly hot water in our thermos flask wasnt hot animore.

4) had to do the primitive way of boiling: fill the sink wif hot water n soak the thermos flask in it.

5) couldnt find a fork. went all arnd looking for it. as a result we forgot to take out our key and locked ourselves out of the room.

6) got one from shi hui but she got stuck out of her room coz ivy fell asleep n dint open the door for her. so she herself got locked out too.

7) opened the cup noodles and found out that there was this humongous fork inside so we went thru all those troubles for nth.

8) took the thermos flask out of the sink and realised there were 3 humongous holes underneath it n our precious hot water was slowly leaking out.

ok i can oni remember 8. forgot the other 3. but anw. wasnt it so unlucky. plus its CHILDREN'S DAY. sheesh.

hmm...then came the terra cotta day. we went to visit the terra cotta warriors thingy. i was wif shi hui n audrey. the moment we stepped out of the place, this whole swarm of vendors came crowding over all of us students. n they were reali scary la i tell u. i kept saying "bu yao bu yao bu yao" but they still kept following me n shoving things rite in front of me. n this stooopid vendor went to ram the sharp box rite into my forehead la! sickening la he. i wanted to sue him man. i got so pissed i just took my book, covered my faced n started swinging it from left to rite n walking kwikly. but those vendors shoved them into my stomach instead. sheesh man.

HOHO desiree was worse. they all kept slapping her shoulders n asking her to buy n she felt so molested. so she crossed her arms over her chest and onto her shoulders and started screaming n running. then all the vendors got so scared they ran away! AHAHHAHA! dez is so pro man!

o yea we travelled on the train twice. one was on the second day and another on the second last day. the train's reali cool man! its like a triple-decker bed. n in each carriage there are abt 10 bunks. each bunk has 2 triple-decker bed. n there are no doors btwn the bunks. just one long corridor. it's super cool k! all the 205-ers were like walking to n fro n climbing onto each other's bed n playing cards n blabla.

den on the second train trip this whole bunch of irritating ppl were sitting on ee's bed. n she dint dare to chase them away. so ee slept wif me. haha it was reali uncomfortable man. coz u noe the train beds are like so super narrow n small. smaller than a single-sized bed. maybe even half of that. n i was on the TOP DECK. n i was sleeping on the outside so my face was like squashed on the railing. n its super scary la! third deck leh. i look down oni see the floor so low down. scary mans. so we were squashed like that for about an hour. so after an hour i felt so uncomfortable i woke up.

me: ee turn abit dont sleep so flat. no space veri uncomfortable.

ee: i cant. i dono where to put my hand its in the way.

me: oh man...ermm...aiya u put under my head la i sleep on it.

ee: ok. *puts arm under my head* yea ok this is much better!

me: *arm presses rite into my neck* erm...i dont feel better leh.

ee: man...but im so squashed up leh.

me: aiya y not u just go back n chase those pigs away.

haha yea so in the end she went back. woa i tell u after she got of the bed it was like HEAVEN man. the bed seemed like a super king-sized bed la!

o and there was this sec 1 guy hu kept carrying this super big pouch everywhere he went. n it had alot of straps on it. so juee n grace n the whole group of them gave him the new name: WONDERBRA. hahahah! super funny man.

anw just now on the plane dez n i could hardly sleep la. coz there was this irritating baby hu kept crying n crying n crying n everytime there was a turbulance it would cry even louder. mans. but i managed to fall asleep n block it out. HOHO but lisa couldnt sleep. coz she was sitting beside the goose! n the goose was sleeping n it kept banging its head onto lisa's shoulder. wahahah! poor lisa.

haha ok i guess thats all i gotta say. gotta go bathe now. trng later. man i hvent bowled for 11 days la. im like so dead. hopefully cat doesnt faint when she sees me bowl. BYE!

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