Saturday, July 30, 2005

songs. ppl mostly go for songs coz of their cool tunes. lyrics dont really play a big role in songs now. after all, they're just mostly love songs, wif those cliched "she left me, i have no longer any reason to live on" lines. but some songs, though not really cool tunes, hv really meaningful lyrics.

Get Up and Live
If you look around and see some joys have passed you by
Don’t feel blue, just get up and live
And if you ever sigh over things you wish you’d try
Now’s the time to get up and live
Don’t set your heart on things you have missed
But look out to the horizon
And get up and live

Chorus:
One day, one day, one day at a time
One day, one day at a time
One day, one day, living one day at a time
One day, one day at a time

And if your past romances lie behind in ruins
Start to love yourself and get up and live
And if some painful memory keeps you hiding from tomorrow
Take a second chance to get up and live
But don’t let your sorrow scold you
Don’t live in the past
And don’t let your failures hold you
Just get up and live

If you had a dream of what you might have been
Don’t let go, just get up and live
And if you think the years turn too quickly through life’s pages
Take what’s left and get up and live
But don’t mourn the years that have drifted
Or what might have been
Take hold of all you’ve been given
And get up and live
Get up and live

One day, one day, living one day…
Ooh one day, one day, just live one day
Just live one day...one day…at a time….

you might think i dont really bother abt this big issue that has happened btwn the 3 of us. that life just goes on as per normal for me. although i might be putting on a smile and acting as if nth has happened, this issue has and is really bothering me. i dont think anybody is to blame for this, because right now i think it is just all a misunderstanding. i can truthfully tell u that everything u think abt me is not true. or at least, i dint intend to do all those. if i have hurt you in any way, im sincerely sorry. im not allowed to swear, but i promise i've never ever had the intention of overthrowing you, much more done such things to try and overthrow you.

yes i admit im angry after all you've done and said abt me, and i noe you're probably angry wif me too, for what reason i have yet to learn. but i think this is all just a misunderstanding and we should sit down and clear it out.

one thing i'd like to clarify first is that im not being despo to become a capt or anithing. in fact, after all that has happened, im quite sure that i dont stand a chance of being in the comm at all. but i have sat down and reflected upon myself and this issue. right now, not being in the comm doesnt really matter much to me. what really matters to me is that we sort this out.

i dont wana go for trng as if im going on a cold war. i dont wanna go for trng being conscious of every single action or every single thing i say, so as not to hurt ur feelings further. i dont wana go for trng as if im going for torture camp.

i admit, i cant empathize wif u and how u feel. but on the other hand, i CAN empathize wif u because i too am feeling equally bothered and hurt. so i hope we sort it out.

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Sunday, July 24, 2005

after a 3-4 week break from lovers in paris i finally got down to continue watching it last nite. mhmm. tess's dad invited this overseas student from hwa chong over. yea so charmaine n charlene came, n i hopped over and we spent the nite together =D yikes i think that sounds sick. hahah okok nvm. anw, so we had dinner n then we watched lovers in paris!

woa the twins were so eager to noe the ending la! esp charlene! she kept begging us to watch the last disc. like HELLO that's so unfun! so yea we watched the first 2 discs. haha tae-young's super funny and spastic la! o but charmaine couldnt tahan so today in church she went to ask my mom who tae-young ended up wif. eeyer! play cheat one!

anw last nite at tess's house i spotted this pebble beside the tv table wif my name on it.
me: uh...tess wad's this thing wif my name doing here?
tess: oops o yea its for you! you can hv it! happy birthday =P
me: HOHO that's like 6 months late!
tess: heh actuali...i did it in p6...it was meant to be for ur 11th bday.

HAHA like o man that's 3 and a half years old la! that stone is really stone-age man.

anw church today. we were crapping as usual over breakfast. and ray told us reali reali lame jokes! n suddenly she started telling us ghost stories...yikes...

and today my maid was on off day, parents n bro went to play tt wif my relatives. so i was the only one at home coz i dint wanna go...i'd rather stay at home n do my chinese pt. and i successfully edited the video! rox man! haha yunie was swooning over the jay song -.-

anw the point is, i was so busy doing my pt that i dint realise im a very imaginative person and dont dare to stay alone at home. until i finished my pt n i was so bored i realised i was the only one at home and started to get scared. then in the shower i recalled the ghost stories ray told us this morning and i suddenly got so freaked out!! and i had to go and practise piano la! and you noe pianos are like the best instruments to use in ghost stories. i was so super scared la.

so i just rushed thru my scales n ran downstairts n sat in the DARK and GLOOMY living room waiting for my piano tcher to come. woa it was the first time i ever wished my tcher would come man. usually i would just hope i could send her off in the initial-d toyota back to the furthest yamaha. but this time round i was sitting there anxiously waiting for the arrival of her grand golden toyota.

and FINALLY...*DING DONG....DING DONG...* she came! i jumped up and rammed the remote control. then i opened the door, and realised my big fat cat was sitting right outside my door. ARGH if i had known earlier i would have asked it to come in and accompany meee! raaah....

anw, piano exam's in 2 days time. yikes i hate piano! piaNOOOOOOO. and on tues we hv aesthetics la! n we're gona cook chicken burger! boooo i want!!! =( i hope halfway thru the exam the pedal breaks then i can sue them. the pedal there is so old and cranky and destroys my beautiful music wif the *KOK KOK KOK* sound. argh.

okai gtg now. its still so early but i got nth to do...too late to play piano...baah....ooh...

Qn: which piano in the market laughs the most?
Ans: yamaHAHAHA

and cheer up audweee! mel loves you! and so does elmo! =D

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Friday, July 22, 2005

okay yaru thnx for ur really nice one-paragraph-dedication on ur previous post. i shall dedicate one to u now =D:

my dearest yaru, aka fellow clown/bird. take geog! dont take lit! geog rox more. i wanna be in the same class as u next yr. and although now ive changed my mind to hist geog, i might consider trip science geog still. but anw, you've changed
so much over the past few months. last yr you were so quiet and timid and shy and wad not. and suddenly, this yr, you've become one crazy person who can never reshape your weird eyebrows which make u look so blur-ded. i still remember how we became good frens. at the beginning of the yr you picked cheryl as your mortal and she's my jnr so yea we began to tok to each other abt her. den during the learning journey week in march we went to the science centre and we were daring each other to slide down the kiddy slide in front of all the kindergarten kids. den jess n sijia went to the art museum thing to see their dolls and i dint wanna go. so i tagged along wif u and we went to long johns. and there the two of us embarrassed ourselves in front of the lady and wasted our money. and from then on you were so determined to go back to LJS and demand a fried fish and not grilled fish. yea, and from then on we kept teasing each other abt it n started hanging out. o and yst u finally fulfilled ur wish by ordering LJS' fried fish. hahaha.

sigh...yst's assembly was fun. well actl the video was boring but yaru yingjing n i had fun crapping and luffing =D ahahah. the oni thing i remembered from the video was a penguin tottling abt. den it fell flat on its tummy and skidded on the ice. den it tottled again and wanted to do a graceful dive into the icey cold water but toppled in instead.

rhd today was...erm...haha as usual. wore jeans wif kurta top and a PINK bandana. yea PINK. anw 204 won the skit! haha congrats ppl! happy for you =D o and 211 did the same story as us. apparently there was a close fight btwn our class n theirs. but ours was more serious so they decided 211's had more entertainment value and was more suitable for the amphi setting. haha but their prince and our prince ALOT of difference can. theirs is TALL and MUSCULAR. whereas im...erm...short n skinny? yea when they chose me as prince everyone luffed coz dian's taller than me. haha but hu cares. not as if we kissed or smth right.

anw after that, went wif audrey to macs for lunch. and as expected, we had a long chat. about? THINGS. but this time round we dint gossip. we just, expressed our feelings on the way things were turning out.

and in my previous post i said ive gotten over it alrdy. but i guess that was just temporary. coz its back again. i think wad has happened has really deeply scarred me. u might think its a stupid thing to get scarred over, but yea that's just how i feel.

like, after wad has happened, now when i see any bowlers, i just get reminded of wad happened. so much so to the extent that when i see certain bowlers, i feel very uncomfortable. on the other hand there are some bowlers whom i can see and yet not get reminded of the past. i guess aiqing, ann, annalyn, jiahui and nikki are the only ppl. dont ask me y, its just like that. esp aiqing. i dont noe y but today i was so happy to see her i jumped up and down and waved frantically like a mad pig.

yea but abt 3-4 bowlers. when i see them i really feel very very uncomfortable. shant mention names here though.

gona bowl later. hvent bowled for more than a week. but im not really excited. it just brings back bad memories...

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Monday, July 18, 2005

so many things have happened over the past week. many ups and downs, but more downs i suppose. well but its all over so there's nth we can do abt it animore. mhmm. i guess i'll take this round of nats as a very valuable lesson.

i guess the most memorable part of this yr's nats for the 4 of us was probably the doubles day. nobody was bowling well. but we were reciting the "yo mudder so fat" thing over and over again, den holding the "joy" and trying to say "she got stuck" at the same time. n then luffing at the thing and doing it over and over again. but deep down inside, we were all feeling really sad and we knew the other 3 were feeling as sad too. looking back at it, its quite ironical, all 4 of us agree. but we plastered a smile on our faces for each others' sake, when we knew how everyone felt. i dono but when i went back after that and thought abt that incident, i felt very touched. i dont noe y.

anw, on the last day of nats...yea i guess the whole team was looking at me not knowing why i cried. well...when everything was over, i told myself it was ok. i neednt be sad, i neednt cry. until smth happened, and i realised how terrible the situation was and just broke down.

n then just before the prize giving, the sec 2s started a photo taking frenzy. i obviously wasnt smiling. so zhimin asked sarah to ask me to smile, which worked, but just for a few seconds. so they were trying to play a fool and tease me, and i was in no mood for that.

they asked sarah to ask me to smile and i did. they asked sarah to hug me and i did. they asked sarah to take a photo wif me. i tried to, but broke down halfway. if u were to ask me y, i'd probably say that everyone was so insistent on playing all kindsa pranks n funny stuff of me when i was so down. so i guess i felt so alone i just cried again.

this week has been lots of crying. on the day of open house i felt real gloomy and sad. coz over the past week, many unpleasant things hv happened. be it bowling or home or frens. and i was pouring it all out to zhimin, when suddenly another rock was added to my burden. it came so unexpectedly. and it was so heavy. i couldnt stand it i just ran out of skool holding back my tears. zhimin asked me wad happened but i just said i'd tell her when i got home. then when i got out of skool, i realised i'd be going home on my own and i couldnt afford to cry. i felt so scared and alone, i dint wanna go home i just wanted to stay there in fear of breaking down halfway. and so i ran back in to zhimin. dragged her out n cried my heart out.

yea its quite awkward reciting all these. but i guess pouring it out just makes me feel better. coz i feel much better now. ive gotten over all these. im not bothered by them anymore. im back to my daily school life =)

anw, it's good to be back in skool. i can study and get along wif my frens, free from politics. and most of all i can share everything and get encouragements from my christian frens. mhmm. its really a nice feeling =)

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Tuesday, July 12, 2005

it's been a long day...and a horrible one too....im so tired i dont wanna do my skoolwork...i dont hv the mood to...

firstly, i would like to thank everyone who helped me wif my ball thingy this morning. whether it was helping me call whoever or just trying to cool the very panicky me down. and sry if u guys were late for class. esp audrey.

the ball incident has been bothering me for the whole day. i cant believe im actualli so stoopid and careless and what not. i rushed up to the lab for bio...not being able to concentrate at all. i was half-staring at the screen n half-looking at my hp for any new updates abt my ball. n all i learnt in skool today was how to fold a piece of DNA paper.

and today i bowled worse than yst. i think im bowling so badly that i just cant cry. i hv underperformed for the past 2 days. all i hv left is team event on thurs. hopefully we all would do better. but at least we had a star frame(4 strikes) for the first shot of the second game. yea that was one of our goals set by us before nats. and zhimin n i got 7th for doubles. i was quite shocked. considering how badly i bowled today...7th is reali good.

sigh...all the small troubles that happened today has really made me tired. n its not that i feel tired after a day of fun. i feel tired and hopeless...i wanna lean on someone's shoulders n fall asleep now...

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Monday, July 11, 2005

congratulations zhimin. you have done the seemingly impossible, you have beaten the traditional unbeatables, and you have done our school proud! no matter what ppl say or how ppl think, be it whether it was just pure luck, or whether it was just a fluke, you still did it =)

today was bad. everyone was so nervous and anxious. and come to think of it, excluding zhimin, we were all bowling very badly. very very badly. we gotta buck up to even try and be top 4 for school positions.

o n today aunty cat was looking at the score sheets. n she told mrs lim: woa our top 4 bowlers all on first page leh! uh...is that a big deal. i dont reali think it is. but nvm. we'll slowly climb up =)

but at least ive improved. i remember last yr i was on the third page for the first 2 days. den on the last day i bowled a 131 avg. and i was like WOAH so high! n then i climbed up to the very bottom of the second page n i was so happy. =S how weird. i bowled a 131 avg last yr n was overjoyed. now i bowled 133 n im depressed. sigh...

cat says my ball roll went haywire today (i fully agree) and she wants me to wear weights tmr. bleagh. hopefully it helps. haha today was super funny la. cheryl kept leaving her slide powder on the seat n everytime one of us unlucky ppl would sit on it n get a white butt. then once cheryl came back, stared at the 3 of us seated on the seats. n said "someone's sitting on my powder..." and immediately all 3 of us like shot up at the same time n unanimously turned our heads towards seats. hahaha that was super funny la! we just burst out luffing. imagine if suddenly u see 3 girls jumping out of their seats n looking back at the same time. hahahaha.

anw doubles tmr. partnering zhimin! wahooo im partnering the top singles! *screams and faints* ahahahha. i better buck up. and sorry if i pull u down zhimin.

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Wednesday, July 06, 2005

olympics voting results gona be out real soon! im rooting for paris. if paris were to win, i'd go there n watch the olympics wif my boyfren in 2012 when im 21. den in 2016 when im 25 i'll go wif my fiance. den in 2020 when im 29 i'll go wif my husband. and in 2024 when im 33 i'll go wif my KIDS =D

woosh...c div coming up...real soon. they announced the lanes which we're bowling during trng today. my team's bowling beside sports skool. n team 2's bowling beside mgs. everyone's trng real hard. everyone's thinking about nth but bowling the whole day. everyone's nervous. some snrs tell us we can do it and we must do our best. others are indirectly tryna say we suck.

but no matter wad, i think wads most important is that we gotta do our best n dont give up no matter wad. sounds cliche but yea. no matter how stoopid my team looks bowling beside sports skool, no matter how pathetic team 2 looks bowling beside mgs, we just gotta do it.

to me, courage is not one who wins. courage is one who does his best, and leaves the rest in God's hands.

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Saturday, July 02, 2005

my words of wisdom has greatly impacted ee's life. "Hey! Be a man! Do the right thing!" =D haha yst during trng audrey was getting a wrist guard from aunty cat

audrey: how much isit?
aunty cat: $35
me: aunty cat! give her best price! $34.50!

okay u'll oni get it if u've watched russell peters. hahaha o man its so qiao la. such an exact price!

on thursday during english we were doing group work. den i wanted to ask ya jie smth. so i turned towards her n at the same time pointed my finger at her. n at the same time she was opening her mouth n facing me. and *ZOOOM* my whole finger went into her mouth!!! YUCKS YUCKS YUCKS! IT WAS SO DISGUSTING CAN! i immediately chionged to the toilet wif my jacket half worn-half falling off n washed my hands a gazillion times. sick man!

n yst during math, ya jie was trying to explain her pythagoras' ya jie's theorem. n we dint even noe wad she was toking about! even miss lim couldnt figure out la! she was like "you take a square n b square den ab square den you..." and we were like "HUH?!" hahaha big joke la she. o and den yst she walked right behind dez and started strangling her. HAHAHA!

ok trng yst was HORRIBLE. coz i just took off my wrist guard so my wrist is like veri fragile now. n den we had to do that stupid swing drill. woa that was killer man!

anw they announced the team. FINALLY! woa sitting on the lanes n listening to cat talking abt competition dates n stuff were reali killing us la! we were like all dying to noe the team. and im LEAD OFF?! i reali dint expect it la! i told myself i would be happy just being in team 1. n i'd probably be 2nd or 3rd bowler. but lead off?!! OH MAN. that's so scary la!

anw i made a deal wif rachel. for every game that i bowl above 170, she buy me one drink. wohoo! haha. but she said if too many then ask sarah to share. eeyer! play cheat one she! i bet u sarah wont share. (coz rachel's the only one that's so nice to agree wif my deal =D) anw i hope i get alot alot of drinks! yes. i better. else i cry.

ok i shall not worry over my positioning now and concentrate on bowling. YES. going trng after this. BYE!

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